your trouble and distress
has discovered the heaviest love in me
the love that you are so afraid of.
I tell you I am finished
with your jealousy, fear, secrets
accidental manipulation
confusion, false hope.
as much as I Long to repair you
I cannot.
and though my heart will weep
when you steal my gaze
I know, undoubtedly
this is the Sensible way
the sincere solution.
I am done
because I am in love with you.
so long as you remain here
in destructive reflection and pain
Let me go.
I am heavyhearted by your mask
numberless worries panic my mind
do you love me, like me, use me?
had I the strength to escape your ecstasy mesh
I would.
I reconsider again
is it me, you, us?
you need not bottle up.
though you seem to drive me, conduct me, handle me
I care about You excessively.
please let me in.
How do you see through me
In my greatest attempt?
Though my simulated joy pains my heart
You comprehending the truth
Would be far worse.
I have to keep denying
Trying
If you knew, you would leave.
My desperate tears at night
Are at war with the words I speak
To your breathtaking eyes.
Though there is no truth
No reason to cry
Or laugh
Or love you
I do.
our fabricated adoration
caged in my sheets
where memories scream infinitely
faithfully returns to my thoughts
your voice consuming me
burying me
that night
the passion was beautiful
but
you will not recognize the commitment i crave.
reappearing as you please
you see your power over me.
am I strong or am I weak?
never knowing
whether I am surrendering to your incantation
or holding on
for the frail chance that we could establish
Us.
with such Infinite eyes
your rooted gaze allures and destroys me
i take you in
struggling to withhold my painful desperation
for your passion and lust
slowly, tamely you move
entering deep into my body
with every beautiful breath to my skin
every sound of pleasure that escapes your beautiful mouth
you confine me
your raw warmth collapses my heart deep into an exotic thrill
where I am trapped in a craving craze
in which my entire reality has vanished
slowly, tamely you move
and I ache for the reveal of your aggressive affection
but I am forced into detrimental consciousness
as you release me
and you disappear
again.
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